Biocloud Adventures
Cloudy Thoughts
04/12/2026
Life is feels so short. Im turning 30 in September. I am doing my best to acvhieve my goals but I feel a heavy weight on my shoulders. I never feel good enough despite everyone around me telling me I am doing more then enough. I offically gave up social media. I do not plan on going back anytime soon. I feel lighter. I am eating healier. My mind seems to be a singular great opponent against me. I am dragged down with anxiety. I wake up in the middle of the night unable to get myself to relax until I reason and make a plan. Its not a good feeling. It feels like I am being held under water. It is a fight to get air. I feel like I cant relax. I hope these feeling are temporary. I hope one day I can find a proper balance. I hope with social media gone, I can live a more peaceful life. On a more positive note; I started watching anime. I havent done that in years. I am rewatching Your lie in April. It seems like a present in the moment show focusing on the small moments. It is slow pace and really lovely. I also made time to make some jewelry! I mixed wire with gems and a chain necklace and it turned out really pretty. I plan to make a charm necklace soon. I picked out some charms for it already. I am excited to see how it will turn out. Spring is happening now. I should go outside more.
04/11/2026
I wanted to write a things to do instead of scrolling on social media list and I am not sure where else to put it but here it is. Organize items in a room or area. Write a blog. Read a book. Declutter. Learn a language. Discover new music. Make a new playlist. Learn a new skill. Walk or work out. Discover a new game. Write in a journal. Talk to a stranger. Go somewhere new.
04/06/2026
It is April. I have spent the first few months of 2026 deep cleaning the house. I am removing old wallpaper from the bathroom. I went to the thrift store and got a beautiful nature picture/painting. My hair is black/dark brown. I am focusing on loosing weight and being healthier. I am making progress. I got into a fixer upper kind of mood and I am doing my best with fixing up the house. A big goal I have is to get my own land and build more house and a lovely garden. It was so fun thinking about it and I want so badly to make it a reality. I hope one day that dream can be achived. My mental health has had its ups and downs. I am currentlty battling my depression and coping with everthing that has happpened this past year. Maybe I am hitting a burnout but lately I just been wanting to be left alone to read and exist. Its healing. I also have been low key dealing with problems in my marriage. I feel like nothing I do is good enough in anything I do and naviagting a relationship has added more difficulty in day to day life. I want to scream throw axes, punch a punching bag. I cant do that. I do not have a axe target, or punching bag and I dont want to disturb the neighbors. I have been so wrapped up into day to day activies and life and responiblities. I crave to be creative and produce and write. I miss it. I guess I am writing now. It feels refreshing.
11/11/2025
Its a random tuesday in November. I am feeling really good thanks to my regular intake of vitamins. /j I have been deep cleaning my house which feels really good. Aside from that I am close to finishing Iron Flame on audiobook. I have been in a small reading slump but slowly getting out of that. The audiobooks help. I am also going to finish The Stolen Heir on audiobook as well. I have been in the mood to listen to pop 2000s divas like pink, beyonce, rihanna and shakira. I have been watching young sheldon which is easily becoming a comfort show. I aim to live a better life and this is the beguining. I am excited for what is to become!
11/02/2025
Hey so it has been two months already? Thats crazy, I am starting a new hobby, crochet. My husband is helping me learn! I am enjoying it so far and I cannot wait to make so many cute things. My pintrest board is full of ideas. I read four netgalley books and completed them. I am in a reading slump but I just getting over it right now. My hair has been black and I love it. Although I am thinking of changing it to dark brown next time I color it. The cold has come and I am feeling so much happier. The wind is so refreshing and the leaves are red, yellow, and orange. Fall is absolutely beautiful! Things are less tight with money and things are getting better. I am feeling creative and hopeful. Things are a little weird with the govt. and that can be rough. I hope to do many fall things! Anyway, Hoping it wont be as long inbetween blogs.
08/18/2025
I have black hair now. The green hair messed up my self worth. I am more confident with black hair. Although July has been the worst. I got so depressed. August has been a recovery month. I have been resting aside from my daily duties. I have spent a lot of my time reading. I finished Fourth Wing and Loved it. I started Iron flame and just a few chapters in, the main female character is being a little annoying but I will push through. I heard its worth it. September is coming up, a reminder of ageing as it is my birthday month. I will be 29. Change is scary and sometimes I want to go back to ealier times. The times in the 90s and early 2000s were such a vibe. I can imagine that makes me sound so old but everything now seems so corperate and bland. I MISS COLOR. Even in the 2010s, there was color in the fastion and design. 2020s just seems sad. I want to bring color and life back into my life at lease.
06/30/2025
My hair is officialy a pale green. I shall change it to black soon! I am hoping it will go better. I never wanted it to be green. It is something I am insecure about and so more often I choose to stay home. The other reason is because it has been really hot around the east coast. I did get a chance to swim in a pool with my Husband. It was really nice! I also took adventage of the sale bath and body works has right now. I got a few spray mist they have. I have been in a weird space with my mental health so I am hoping to overcome that and be my normal self. The past two weeks feels like I have been focused on surviving. I feel a shift today and hope to enjoy the little moments.
06/08/2025
Every seven years, you are a whole new person. I am 28 years old. That means I have been four different people. I am entering a new stage of my life and its scary. I got married, legally changed my entire name, and learned so much about myself. Change is scary. I picked up so many hobbies within three months. I am trying different things like jewelry making, writing a book and now coding. I don't know what I am doing, but I guess no one really does, I guess. I tried to color my hair on my own. I wanted it to be light purple but it washed out because I probably did it wrong. I had a Transylvania color as back up and it turned out fine. Its turning green after a few washes. I will fix it soon enough and on the bright side it kind of looks like mermaid hair! With all that being said, I welcome this new person I am.